Thank you for the many blessings you have bestowed upon me this year including some very difficult struggles, some new friendships, and some new perspectives on life that are helping me better embrace the person within my soul.
Being able to look back on our time together, I can see with greater clarity the bigger picture behind some of your antics. You must have known I needed affirmation about my purpose in life; thank you for allowing me to embrace my passion for children in poverty in a new and different way; to feel understand that impact comes in many different ways.
You are so wise too, 2012. You saw my struggle with the split-personality life I was leading as a school leader. You saw that I had a desire to be more true to me and who I am inside. Thank you for putting me in a place where I am able to walk into work each day with a smile, utilize creativity to a new level to help children, and to have relationships that are not ripe with conflict, backbiting, and pain. I am so much happier as a professional today.
Thank you too for allowing events to transpire over the course of the year that allowed me to embrace old and new friendships with the passion I do many other things in life. You have allowed me to know and understand friendship in a different level and to seek opportunities to be the friend I want to be to others. I know I still have a way to go on this one, but am thankful for the handful of people you have infused and pushed into my life in a much deeper level. Their various impacts are making me so very happy with both the internal and external me.
But 2012, as you talk to 2013, will you please ask her to continue to help me work through those inner demons? Yeah, those. The newfound strength and purpose you have shown me has helped me begin to open those doors and reflect on the question “will I regret it…” if I do, or don’t act in a particular way to those demons. It is not easy to look in those windows…they are a source of pain and angst. They will require more of me than anything this year…
And, please also ask her to continue to help me continue on this life journey of self-examination and realization. Please ask her to keep the positive influences coming and to infuse rich experiences into my life during her reign…ask her to help me to continue to find and embrace that “inner goddess” who is able to fully embrace life.
2012, thank you for all you have offered. I’m sad to see you go but am excited to see what 2013 will bring.